Sh*t!Lost my chance again!!!!

Urrrgh!!!Y?Y?Y? i know im a genius but y am i occasionaly dumb??? Is it because a chemical reaction is going on in my brain??? i could have stood next to her(white specs)... could it be true that im a bit dumb naturally???

stressful sec life...

Is secondary life stressful???i think sometimes. i used to think dat secondary life would be better than primary sch life. But now i think not. After i finish my homework (pri) i would feel a sense of satisfaction. But now, after i 'finish' my homework, there's a sense of emptiness çause deep down i know that i had something else to do and i just pushing to a later date to do it. What difference does it make? I'll still have to do my hw... sometimes i just don't know what's the problem with me...

Studying....confused....

For a moment, i tell myself," what's the point of worrying, what's the point of caring about my studies", then i relax and go play and fool around. Then, the next minute i get all worried- like now, thinking that im too relaxed( every1 thinks so.) So i think...will i be serious this time? Will i stop fooling around? Ive been at this for many times, but 1/2 way through i start to relax again. But deep down, i know if i study hard, i'll be able to succeed/ make it. I know my results will improve if i just try. But why do i always give up just because i saw something fun and think dat studying is just a waste of time. But now, i'll be serious. My new resolution is to study hard so i can be proud of myself. This time, i'll not give up till i succeed.